You come home from school one day. You've had yet another horrible day. You're ready to just give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've written and rewritten over and over and over. You take out those razor blades, and cut for the very last time. You grab the bottles of pills and take them all. Laying down, holding the letter to your chest, you close your eyes for the very last time. A few hour later, your little brother/sister comes and knocks on your door to come tell you dinner is ready. You don't answer, so he/she walks in. All he/she sees is you laying on your bed, so he/she thinks your asleep. He tells your mom this. Your mom goes up to your room to wake you up. She notices something is odd. She grabs the paper in your hand and reads it. Sobbing, she tries to wake you up. She's screaming your name. Your brother/sister is so confused and runs to go tell your Dad that "Mommy is crying and (y/n) won't wake up." Your dad runs to your room. He looks at your mom, crying, holding the letter to her chest, sitting next to your lifeless body. It hits him, whats going on, and he screams. He screams and throws something at the wall, then falls to his knees. He starts to cry. Your mom crawls over to him, and they sit there, holding each other crying. The next day at school, there's an announcement. The principal tells everyone about your suicide. It takes a few seconds for it to sink in, and once it does, everyone blames themselves. Your teachers think they were too hard on you. Those mean popular people, they think of all the things they've said to you. That boy that used to tease you and call you names, he can't help but hate himself for never telling you how beautiful you really are. Your ex boyfriend/girlfriend, the one that you told everything to, that broke up with you.. He/she cant handle it. They're sobbing too, wondering how they could never see that anything was wrong, wishing they could have have helped before it was too late. And your best friend? He/she is in shock. They cant believe it. They knew what you were going through but never thought it would get that bad.. Bad enough for you to end it. They cant cry, they cant feel anything. They stand up, walks out of the classroom, and just inks to the floor. Shaking, screaming, but no tears coming out. It's a few days later, at your funeral. The whole town came. Everyone knew you, that girl with the bright smile and bubbly personality. The one that was always there for them, the shoulder to cry on. Lots of people talk about al the good memories they had with you, there were a lot. Everyones crying, your little brother/sister, still doesn't know you killed yourself, he/she is too young. Your parents just said you died. It hurts him/her a lot. You were his big brother/sister, always suppose to be there for em. Your best friend, they stay strong enough through the entire service, but as soon as they start lowering your casket into the ground, they lose it. They cry and cry and cry and doesn't stop for days. It's two years later. The whole school talks to a counselor/therapist at least once a week. Your teachers all quit their job. Those mean girls have eating disorders now. That boy that used to tease you cuts himself. Your ex boyfriend/girlfriend doesn't know how to love anymore and just sleeps around with girls. Your friends all go into depression. Your best friend? They tried to kill themself. They didn't succeed like you did, but tried. Your little brother/sister? They finally found out the truth about your death. He self harms, he cries at night, he does exactly what you did for years leading up to your suicide. Your parents? Their marriage fell apart. Your dad became a workaholic to distract himself from your death. Your mom got diagnosed with depression and just lays in bed all day. People care. You may not think so, but they do. Your choices don't effect just you. They effect everyone. Don't end your life. You have so much to live for. Things cant get better if you give up. Im here for absolutely anyone that needs to talk, no matter who you are. Even if we have never talked before.. Im here for you.
